Suck his dick
Brokenness can only be concealed for so long until it begins to leak. Life together is messy because being close to someone means you will eventually start spilling your mistakes into each other’s life. But it’s healthy to let the people who love you in. So let them in. Don’t hide yourself in fear of those spills. Having your imperfections discovered is the beginning of genuine intimacy—a kind of vulnerability that is equally beautiful and complicated.